Dear, you,
Some days the voices in your head get louder and drive you insane, pushing you to a wave of depression and an irritable mood. On such days I want to remind you: You are enough…You can do this…you are fine. You have people who care so much about you, suicide should not be an option and should never be placed on the table as a bargain. Reach out to these people to re-energize you and fill your heart and mind with positive vibes.
You might be reading these words and you feel like I am not making any sense, that your death will ease the pain. You want to get rid of the pain and go back to your normal self and just feel free. But darling! pain demands to be felt. Cry if you need to cry to let the frustration out do whatever you need to do to feel and embrace the pain but under no circumstance should you lock it in. You see that teardrop that falls from your eyes, that sadness in your eyes, that pain in your heart is very much necessary. Why is it necessary? It is necessary to shape and mould you into a greater form of You. One thing I know for sure and I can attest to is that God never wastes our past pain, but he rather turns it into gain.
Our mind is a great stronghold and it impacts what we say and to some extent, it dictates how you behave. Your mind is a constant battlefield on a day-to-day basis. Somedays you may find your mind constantly repeating thoughts that you have no control over making you feel feelings of great sadness and anger which is completely unnecessary. And at that moment, I want to remind you that as long as you have no control of that situation free your mind but not thinking about it anymore. I want you to understand that you will not always have control of things that are happening in your day to day to life but you can choose to be aware, and realize you can control how you accept and relay the message to your mind.
Allow yourself to trust the process of every setback you might be feeling. You wouldn’t pretend you are not in pain if you stubbed your toe onto the wall or a table. Emotional pain is just as valid as physical pain and you should never be ashamed of it. You are allowed to feel your feelings because your feelings are valid. Do not beat yourself up, your pain doesn’t have to define you. Your strength and courage to go through this are what should define you.
When your chest aches and is swimming with all your faults and flaws and you can’t seem to find your footing remember that fear is a liar. Do not allow the pain you feel to turn you into something that you are not. Give yourself a pep talk “I can do this, I can be happy, I can go through this with a smile, I can and will have a good day” it works wonders.
Finally, be kind to yourself because the way you speak to yourself matters. Forgive yourself for all the mistakes you think you might have made. Take as much time you need for yourself till you become yourself again.
Tranquillity, a state of calmness.
Your Friend,
Michelle.